If you are a girl like me, you've done the diet before. I was on my
first diet at 5 y.o., joined WW at 10, and my mother put me on a
"doctor" regulated diet with amphetamines and 800 calories a day when I
was just 13. The last was probably the one that totally screwed my
metabolism for the rest of my teenage years. I lost 40 pounds one
summer from swimming and a boyfriend that made me anxious enough that I
couldn't digest my food properly. Another year my grandmother paid a
$350 fee so that I could try another diet called "Metabolic." Then
there was Jenny Craig, which helped me loose enough weight that my body
allowed me to get pregnant.
Here I am, 31 years since my first
diet. I gained it back every time. I changed few habits, still crave
chocolate, ice cream, Thai food, you name it, no matter how bad I know
it is for me. So, I had to make a choice. See, we've been trying to get
pregnant for about 2 years now, and my weight keeps creeping up. And I
really want a baby. Well, there are days that I think one boy is
enough, but others... well, my heart aches.
My chiropractor's
office has been stocked with Ideal Protein products for a couple of
years, and I was tempted from the first day. The protocol is a lot like
the "metabolic" plan I did in my twenties, so I know it will work. But
will I keep it off? Will they teach me how?
Sometimes I
overthink things, and this is no exception. But I have good reason,
right? You read a brief history of my temporary weight loss successes,
and I don't like to fail. I teach, and I preach failure is just another
stepping stone to success, but c'mon - at some point we have our
limits. But I wanted something more than avoiding failure...
With
trepidation I went to an info session. I stuck around and talked to my
chiropractor - although I think she could sense my trepidation, she has
no idea how deep this fear goes. I went home, thought about it some
more, talked about it with my husband, and finally decided to take yet
another chance and be brave. Braver than I've been before and just hope that with the work, deprivation, and hope, I can do it.
